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The Game Is On... But What Game Is It?

When an avenue closes, are we left to stare at the newly formed brick wall that now blocks our way? Or are we merely boxed in, encased within a turmoil that mourns what our future would've been? I personally believe it all depends on what path has come to an end. I must take a moment to apologise for my absence, my life has been but a flurry of new paths that seem to snake and wind their way through different bustling streets of life.  When I was a young teenager, I had developed a hyper fixation on a television show known as BBC Sherlock. While the show itself is merely a modernised version of the original masterful series of novels published by the infamous Sir Arthur Conan Doyle within the Strand Magazine during a time that's been long forgotten. I found something so beautiful that spoke so clearly and openly into the very belly of my soul. Some say the characters Sherlock Holmes and Dr John Watson have been on a very specific path for years. A romantic entanglement that ha...
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The World's Deadliest Virus in 10 Days

Some people may be aware that I caught Covid 19 on Sunday the 20th of March 2022. The interesting thing is those who contacted me in the time I had the virus would rush past the "Are you okay?" In favour of jumping directly into the "So... How is it?"  For a virus that has plagued the world for almost 3 years has remained more of a mystery than anything else, and those of us who are unfortunate enough to have caught the plague of the 21st century are some of the few who can accurately document the affects this illness gives us. No, I'm not radioactive. I've not suddenly developed super speed or web-shooting abilities. Unfortunately, my dream in living the life of an X-Man has yet to come to fruition. Instead, what I felt was a strange combination of flu like symptoms and that of the common cold.  The day I first had it, I was visiting my parents' house. Be rest assured that I didn't know I was ill at this moment in time. I was sat on the sofa chatter...
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The Magic We All Hold

Don't you think it's rather strange the levels that we, as people, will reach in order to feel some level of comfort? When I think of that word, I picture my mother's hug, the smell of tobacco and a slight musk that can only be described as her. Have you ever owned something that brings you comfort? I own two things that I can count, one of them being my vape, the plumes that leave my lips on each exhale brings some level of domination to the world around me. It almost acts as a living metaphor that proves I can affect my environment with my mere existence. It's especially comforting when I feel as though the world spins too fast and my life is a rope slipping helplessly through my fingers. The second item that I can think of must be my baby blanket. I know, laugh it up now. But I'm not telling you all this to derive laughter or mockery, but to inspire understanding and acknowledgement.  As a fully grown man, it can be embarrassing to go to a hotel or sleep at a fri...
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Dysphoria, Dysmorphia and Morpheus

Growing up as a girl comes with challenges. You are constantly taught how you are to be more subdued, less energetic. I'm sure you've watched a little girl scream at the top of her lungs as she ran around in a fit of imaginative play. I've seen mothers and fathers both try and calm the child, even going as far as telling the poor thing off.  Have you ever seen a little boy behave in the same way? Shouting and yipping out in glee as he battles against the monsters that resides only in his mind? I've seen mothers and fathers heave a loving sigh before shaking their heads, often following their actions with a muttered "Boys will be boys." Little girls then grow and are told to not sit with their legs apart as it's 'unladylike'. This has always been such a strange request, as I've never been able to truly define what a lady is and why she shouldn't be allowed to sit how she pleases.  All the while, when boys sit like that, they're told that...
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Helpful Technology

  As I've said in previous posts, I work at a vape shop. For privacy reasons I'll reference the company as 'Authentic Vapes'.  My average day at work consists mostly of cleaning the surfaces of the shop, maintaining the displays and serving customers as they come and go throughout the day. We're located on a small side road just on the outskirts of the city.  While my time working can be rather mundane and at times boring if we're particularly quiet (I always make sure to refrain from using said word for risk of invoking the manic-customer gods that retail and NHS workers cower in fear before). I also find that my day can be remarkably rewarding, specifically when I help a customer finally kick their smoking habit. The day in which I am talking about was fairly normal, we were running a Black Friday event and had reduced the price of most of our stock to barely more than a few pounds with such a drastic price drop, I had a few people come by in search for produc...
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Psychopath or Self Loathing?

It's common to question your own personality traits, at least I believe so. If it wasn't common, then why would there be so many online tests to show what kind of potato you are or, laying in theme with this post, to what percentage of psychopath you are.  I have a staple group of friends, who I invite around every week or two. We have dinner, play a board game and then retire for the night.  It was at one of these get-togethers that one of our friends, we'll call him Jaques (all names in this post have been changed for privacy and confidentiality) mentioned a test that we could all take. It would tell us in no uncertain terms if we were a psychopath or not.  Being a curious bunch of people, we each loaded the test on our phones and began to check if we are psychopaths or not. My fianc èe was the first of us to finish with a score of 4 points, RJ scored 8 along with his boyfriend, Jaques. Me, however, I scored 20.  Now isn't that interesting?  Not wanting to bel...
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I Joined a Cult Accidentally

Being ordained into a cult seems like something that you might notice, or maybe even an event that would be classed as unforgettable. But what happens when you’re accidentally accepted as a member of a cult? Well that changes things in ways that you may never expect.  I work at a vape shop (now for privacy and confidentiality, I won’t be naming the shop or the man in question. Instead I will refer to them as either Mick Doe or Authentic Vapes.) Have you ever felt like you were truly understood by someone? Truly accepted without any hesitation? Well I have, and on a number of occasions. The most recent one (as of the time I'm writing this) is when I was ordained into a cult.  I was serving Mick Doe without any hesitation. We’d previously chatted for a while and gained a very stable professional relationship between shop clerk and customer. We’d laughed and joked with one another and even formed the vestiges of a friendship. Now I constantly try to be a proficient and proactive ...
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